Things are going good for me right now. I have a lovely boyfriend, don’t get me wrong, we have our moments but we’re happy together. I have a job that doesn’t totally suck, I get on with most the people there and it pays well and I could be doing a lot worse. And my friends are there for me even though I sometimes suck so bad.

So what’s happening? Why is it that these last few weeks I’ve felt lost, and unhappy, and wanting to cry constantly and just feeling exactly how I used to? I’ve been feeling better, I don’t know what’s changed or what’s set me off.

I’m back to feeling like I’m not okay. Like I need my meds again. All I want to do is cry and cut and sleep. And it’s completely pathetic. I feel fucking pathetic.

And I’m trying so hard to push past it and not show people how bad I’m doing. He knows something’s up but I don’t know what to tell him, I don’t know what’s wrong. It’s so frustrating.

What the hell is wrong with me? I should be happy right now =/